Thursday, November 27, 2008

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I just can’t stand him.

there are days when he’s okay with me, but most days, I’m just annoyed by his antics.

I am not comfortable being in the same room with a few people with him. What more if it were only the two of us. 

I don’t hate him. I just don’t know how to react to his actions.

I don’t show resentment or anything. I just act normally [ignoring his corny jokes, not talking until he does] but I think he notices.

[sigh] my attitude towards him has caused tension between us. He as well has started to be silent when were together. He changes his behavior as well when I enter the room. I usually don’t look him in the eye when we talk or cross paths. 

but I put effort in making a good bond with him. I sometimes try to act interested when he speaks. I try to answer his questions with oh-so-obvious answers. I’m trying to make a connection.

maybe it’s just me. I hope it’s just me.

[sigh] I hope I fix this. I don’t want silence to last forever. I can’t keep on faking my laughs. 

I hope there’d be progress.

[T-T]

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

I hate people

I hate people.

People are hurtful. They cause each other pain.  People are MEAN.

People are greedy. People are envious. Always wanting what is not theirs. People are never satisfied.

People are liars. People are hard to trust. They are very deceiving. Always insecure.

People are perfectionists. But they are not perfect themselves. People stare at each other. People judge others. People are VAIN

They curse each other. They are afraid of each other. People are paranoid

People are competitive. fighting for the wrong reasons. Then they lose.

People are users. Very needy. Always dependent. Very parasite-like.

People are spiteful. Vindictive. Regretful.

People are sad. People are FOOLISH

They annoy me. Unfortunately, I am one of them.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

fear

FEAR
is a little bug that chews on you 

BIT     by
    bit
                                                    from the INSIDE

It 
     is the little bump inside your chest 
                                   that beats your heart 
                                                    HARD
 
 It makes you do things you   DON'T 
                                    usually   DO


It makes you JITTER

and it forms little beads of sweat on your forehead

and the ONLY destroyer of 
                                                FEAR
                                                           is ASSURANCE                              

                                   

weird mode [as usual]

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

RAIN RAIN

there is 
         a good reason 

                           why birds 
                                don't go flying around when it's raining.

Raindrop
                             taste 
       good

  and you wouldn't want to taste something else when you go, 

aaaaaah 

                                                                    in a drizzle.


rain loving mode [+_+]

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

There are some who say that you should forgive everyone
                                       even the people who have disappointed you immeasurably

There are others who say you should NOT forgive anyone
                             
                                       and should stomp off in a 
                                                  huff
                                                                                  no matter how many times they apologize. 

             Of these two philosophies, 
                         the second one is of course 

                                                                         much 
                                                                                   more 

                                                                                               FUN
  
         but can also grow exhausting to stomp off in a huff every time someone has disappointed you, as everyone disappoints everyone eventually
                                 
                                    and one can't stomp off in a huff every minute off the day.

--LEMONY SNICKET



quote posting mode [^_^]

Monday, November 3, 2008

NOSTALGIA

I have LOST my spark.
my enthusiasm for blogging has been in sleep mode for a long time......

I really                                                                    really  
                     REALLY
                                         really
                                                                      MISS blogging......



[nostalgic mode : I]