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I just can’t stand him.

there are days when he’s okay with me, but most days, I’m just annoyed by his antics.

I am not comfortable being in the same room with a few people with him. What more if it were only the two of us. 

I don’t hate him. I just don’t know how to react to his actions.

I don’t show resentment or anything. I just act normally [ignoring his corny jokes, not talking until he does] but I think he notices.

[sigh] my attitude towards him has caused tension between us. He as well has started to be silent when were together. He changes his behavior as well when I enter the room. I usually don’t look him in the eye when we talk or cross paths. 

but I put effort in making a good bond with him. I sometimes try to act interested when he speaks. I try to answer his questions with oh-so-obvious answers. I’m trying to make a connection.

maybe it’s just me. I hope it’s just me.

[sigh] I hope I fix this. I don’t want silence to last forever. I can’t keep on faking my laughs. 

I hope there’d be progress.

[T-T]

I hate people

I hate people.

People are hurtful. They cause each other pain.  People are MEAN.

People are greedy. People are envious. Always wanting what is not theirs. People are never satisfied.

People are liars. People are hard to trust. They are very deceiving. Always insecure.

People are perfectionists. But they are not perfect themselves. People stare at each other. People judge others. People are VAIN

They curse each other. They are afraid of each other. People are paranoid

People are competitive. fighting for the wrong reasons. Then they lose.

People are users. Very needy. Always dependent. Very parasite-like.

People are spiteful. Vindictive. Regretful.

People are sad. People are FOOLISH

They annoy me. Unfortunately, I am one of them.

fear

FEAR

is a little bug that chews on you 

BIT     by

    bit

                                                    from the INSIDE

It 

     is the little bump inside your chest 

                                   that beats your heart 

                                                    HARD

 

 It makes you do things you   DON'T 

                                    usually   DO

It makes you JITTERy 

and it forms little beads of sweat on your forehead

and the ONLY destroyer of 

                                                FEAR

                                                           is ASSURANCE                              

                                   

weird mode [as usual]

RAIN RAIN

there is 

         a good reason 

                           why birds 

                                don't go flying around when it's raining.

Raindrops 

                             taste 

       good, 

  and you wouldn't want to taste something else when you go, 

aaaaaah 

                                                                    in a drizzle.

rain loving mode [+_+]

There are some who say that you should forgive everyone, 

                                       even the people who have disappointed you immeasurably. 

There are others who say you should NOT forgive anyone, 

                             

                                       and should stomp off in a 

                                                  huff

                                                                                  no matter how many times they apologize. 

             Of these two philosophies, 

                         the second one is of course 

                                                                         much 

                                                                                   more 

                                                                                               FUN, 

  

         but can also grow exhausting to stomp off in a huff every time someone has disappointed you, as everyone disappoints everyone eventually, 

                                 

                                    and one can't stomp off in a huff every minute off the day.

--LEMONY SNICKET

quote posting mode [^_^]

NOSTALGIA

I have LOST my spark.

my enthusiasm for blogging has been in sleep mode for a long time......

I really                                                                    really  

                     REALLY

                                         really

                                                                      MISS blogging......

[nostalgic mode : I]